Stuck in the mud.

[ Here I am... procrastinating... suprise suprise. Well, I might as well make use of the time. ]
So here I am. 6 months into a year I DID NOT want to do.
"I've decided I can't choose who needs to go to cornerstone and who doesnt, so I'm asking you to go too." Rohan caught me off guard (nov 08). I had not expected this and my expectations and dreams for the following year were shatted with one tear wrenching visit to Ro's office.
It wasn't until very late december 08 when the wrestle I had been having with God over this decision ended, and I was down for the count. I had finally submitted and realised that cornerstone was what God wanted me to do, and there was no way around it.
It wasnt until early January before I heard back from Jon. Everyday came and went so quickly, and with it brought a new rush of nerves for the impending mysterious year. I knew very little about cornerstone, only what I had heard from Aaron and Simon, and what i had found on the website (which I could tell hadnt been updated in yonks). But something that helped imensly was a new friend God delivered me, fresh out of cornerstone. Just before summer roundups Teen Ranch got two brand new staff members. One was Sarahjane, a wonderful woman of God, I thank God for because of her amazing support and friendship. But the second was a mister "Markus Aurelius", and he was the one mentioned previously. Mark was arriving here after doing first year in 06 and then two years of team, and he was God's way of calming my nerves- without me even realising. His many happinesses and experiances he shared with me about his times in cornerstone, and seeing the kind of man he had been shaped into, helped so much. When I left Teen Ranch with Nat (having another person, my amazing friend Nat, was another gift from God. She is an incredible friend and I was so glad to be setting off on the journey together), it was incredibly hard, but I was incredibly less nervous for the mystery awaiting me (although my stomach was addmitingly still in a knot).
So the year has been SOOOOO hard. So many challenges have been faced and conquered, and many I'm still struggling with. But along the way I have grown as a person and made many memories and friends I will remember forever. I may fill you in future blogs, but I need to go to bed because I'm prunning in the morning (if the rain stops!) and the net cuts out soon anyway haha.
So I'm excited about the rest of the year I am yet to face, and hope it will be just as (or maybe more) amazing than what has already passed.
But to leave you with a way you can help me...
please pray for me as I face the challenge of changing the way I approach the study we have to do and my attitude and willingness concerning the assessments. I feel horrid about it all at the moment and feel throughly stuck in the mud. Although there are many exciting things coming up (open weeks and maybe even Teen Ranch) I am worried they will provide me with more non work opportunities, so my personal challenge is to get caught up pre these events.
Ont that note I must depart. Love you all abundantly. May God bless your coming days and open your eyes to His prescence and revelations.
Over and out, Little One.