Facts of the single life....

27 days until I am no longer just mine. I am two but one.
It is a creepy thought to think that I am 19 and getting married, but I tell you what... secretly I am flippin excited.
I can't wait for married life to begin, no really! It is taking too long! hehe But I am trying to enjoy the freedom.
The fact I will not see him at all today.
The fact I dont have to put the seat down everytime I go to the toilet.
The fact there are no dishes stacked up.
The fact that I'm a bit mad at him but I'm not stuck in the same house as him, I have some space.
The fact that I am sharing with an Irish girl and we can talk about alsorts of girly things until one of us drops out.
The fact I can snuggle up to my hundreds of soft things.
The fact I can stay up on my computer for ages without being told I'm wasting my time.
The fact my girlfriends can randomly drop in and just chill
The fact i can eat whatever I want without ridicule :) hehe

I'm sure there is alot more, but I shall go enjoy those things for now...

Intro to treedom

So it's really late and I should be in bed but I couldn't help but be sad in my apparant lack of keeping my blog going post-canowindra!!
The other day I DID make over the blog a bit, so I thought that I would write a short intro into the refreshed blog, written in an unrefreshed tired state.

I have made it to the end of May. 

An amazing jam-packed year so far (why is it not vegemite packed...?), so much has happened I can't believe it myself, so why am I trying with you lot... :P

I am on an amazing adventure with God, learning adulthood and living with others. Mark and I are reading a book atm called "Search for Significane" which is not only great for me to read to help me realise what things can get in my way that I my hardly notice, but it's also great because it has been a great thought resource for some girls I'm helping disciple.

Mark and I are on a path with God like no other... Love.
He is an amazing man of God and he helps me focus on the eternal :)

Thats a good enough update for this time of night :D

Wordle my blog, yo!

Word size is determinded by frequency of use in text :)

The Paddymelon.

Weeding, weeding, weeding. Oh how I love weeding.
NOT!
Today we had to weed watermelon runs, a seemingly easy, yet horribly monotonous job from the pits of hell!!
Basically, what you have to do is take a 'run' each (a metre wide, 250m long, garden bed of dirt, slightly raised with a 'gutter' either side of it the same size as tire tracks) and walk along inspecting each hole ( a hole per metre, most with a baby watermelon plant, some not) in the plastic that lines the bed and look for weeds (any sized, even one miniscule leaf) and pull them out.
If you have a choice between this job and death... well I'll let you decide but you can probably guess what my strong suggestion would be.
This was not the first time we had done this, so this time I was thinking so very hard of ways to improve the job.
First I was trying to convince Jason to sing to us, and he wouldnt so I was singing to him "Sing us a song, your the weeding man, sing us a song right now, for we're all in the mood for a melody, to help the time pass along". And then I was coming up with other songs "I like to weed it, weed it" and they were getting lamer and lamer so I moved on...
My next stop was praying the alphabet. Ever heard of this? Its great if you are doing something that takes no brain space for extensive lengths of time eg, driving or labour work. All you basically do is go throught the alphabet and pray for the first person that comes to your mind that starts with that letter.
But amoungst my trek along the alphabet I got horribly sidetracked, as I do, I got to thinking about paddymelons.
[If you dont know what a paddymelon is- it is a vine plant that produces melons of the weed variety and it is very decieving.]
When we were weeding we had to watch out for the sprouts of these plants and pull them out too. they look almost identicle to the watermelon plants, so you need to study them well. Only after studying the watermelon plants (the good plant, the one we want to leave in the ground) and getting advice from our boss (who knows exactly the good from the bad), can we see the difference in the paddymelon plant and spot them to pull out. Once you get used to recognising them, and checking back on what the watermelon plant looks like, you get pretty good at spotting them- all sizes and hiding amoungst the good plants- and quickly pinching them and ripping them out.

It got me thinking about sin, and how its our paddymelon. It grows, even though we dont plant it, and it takes away all the strength from the good. It hides amoungst the good qualities, and unless we regulary study the guide for what a good 'plant' is, you wont easily recognise the bad one! But when you focus on talking to the author who knows the good from bad, and read his guide, studying it well- you get really good at recognising the bad and quickly ripping it out!

Even though it took me a long way to get to the point (sorry, I like talking! ), I thought I would let you in on my mind a little, and share this thought. I hope it provokes something in you...

Bugs, Mugs and Hugs!

Three things plaguing me at the moment- bugs that decide you face is a great place to hang out when you are trying to sleep, mugs that go missing throughout the year and fail to be found ever again, and hugs- or rather the lack there of.

Today was a beautiful day. The intense heat would make you think the earth has gone crazy and thought itself stuck in summer! But the beautiful flowers, melodious chirping birds and bellowing breezes let you know that it is still spring... its just having some fun of the celsious kind.

Lately, I have been finding that quite often - when I want to deepen the conversation with the person I'm talking to - I revert to the trusty old:

"What has God been teaching you recently?".

There are a two reasons I really like asking this question: One, it asks for honesty and deeper relationships, Two, I helps me get a picture of where the person is at and how I can pray for them. But there is another good thing about asking this question I have recently discovered... it forces me to think about what God has been teaching me!
( In otherwords what i have learnt it: If you ask a question, expect it to get asked back and be ready!)

Jump!

Life is an obcticle course. Thats my new analogy.
You know the feeling, I'm sure of it. You feel like you have gotton the best of the obstacle- beaten the record, feel great! and then you realise there is another one in front of you!
It makes me feel down thinking about it. But I have to look at it properly- everytime I learn a really good lesson that equips me for future obstacles, and each one helps train me to focus on God.
I dont think I want them to stop you know, I guess the initial pain at the beginning is hard to get past. But thats why I don't need to rely on my strength, I can rely on God's.
One of my favourite passages at the moment is Psalm 18:30-32. One line in it that really helps me is- "It is God who arms me with strength". Its hard to remember that the strength I do have comes from God! If your part of the stream is dry you need to get closer to the source to find more right? If I feel my strength is running low I need to get closer to where its coming from- God- and only then can it get greator.

I was going to continue writing, but I have to scoot off on an adventure! (I will fill you in because its a secret for now) Please pray for me and my stress levels and learning how to deal with it when I get stressed, and this adventure I'm off on that I make the most of it (and drive safe! :P)

Over and Out,
Little One.

dewa cinta adalah milikmu ♥

Something I learnt today: at the end of the story of daniel and the lions den, the people who wrongly accused daniel (and their families) got thrown into the den and devoured by lions. Thats something they don't teach in sunday school.

One of my lecturers today made a statement that really got me thinking:

"Most of the problems [in this world] come from not seeing ourselves how God sees us."

I think there is definatly some weight to the statement but I spose it just hits home a bit. If I truly thought of myself as God sees me, or treated and looked at others how God sees them... would I live anything like I do now??.... just something to get you thinking....


Been learning recently that now matter how content I feel, no matter how much I feel I have grown, challenges are still going to be thrown my way and I still have to work on my relationship with God. But also I am not discouraged by this, its like a marathon- the more I can live through the stronger I'll get and the easier it'll be. It appeals to my competetive side hehe.
anyways I was going to talk about these more but I must sleep. until next time...

dewa cinta adalah milikmu ♥